2 IRONY

I was alone
you came along

I was unsure of you
You were persistent

I was miserable
you were happy

I was cautious
You were carefree

I opened up
We became close

I cried
You were there

I was pouring my heart out
You seem distant

I have questions
You never answered

I held on to illusions
of vague familiarity

I missed you
You never seem to care

I was unsure
Yet you were confident

I was attached
You grew distant

I fell
you moved on

0 YUE

ball of fire, present every night
come fill me up with your wondrous light
take me to a place for you and me
excite in me feelings just for you only

you amaze me with your subtlety
I am enthralled by you only
such power and might you possess
yet humble and simple still, you are

slowly, surely, slowly as i watch
your amorous ascent towards the sky
why you captivate me is still a mystery
but thats the truth, no use denying it

you control the tides of my emotions
 high tide, low tide, high tide, low tide
such extremes, still, im captivated
im caught, like a moth to the fire

why so elusive? im caught but im not sure
will it be just like the last, or will this last?
just like the different phases you have
is this just a phase? just something that will pass

as I gaze upon you, ive seen different sides
Sides I didnt know you possess inside
so near yet so far, i can hardly reach through you
is it fate that I can just watch you from afar?

The poem was you
watashi no yue desu

0 Why

why do i even try?
i know what the outcome will be
the all too familiar feeling
void of any emotion
nothing but numbness
well, after all the pain gripping your heart will the numbness come..
sometimes I wonder why I put myself in situations like this..
or maybe this is just destiny playing with me?
It's this cycle again..

please get out of my mind,.
the moment i wake up,
thoughts of you keep flooding me
as the day progresses, your face will suddenly jump out of nowhere..
there are times when your face brought a smile to my face
and there are times that it delivered gloom..

hopelessness,..
i know this is not good..
but what can i possibly do?
that you will be interested in me
is like winning the lottery
a one-in-a-million chance
thats what it will be

why did that ever happened?
it just left me more confused..
in the end I have no choice left..
but to sit back and just wait

0 Waiting For You

I will wait for you.. and i will wait patiently..

I know you are just around the corner. Maybe we have already met, maybe not.

In God's perfect time, I know we will eventually be together.

He is currently writing my love story, the most perfect love story for you and me.

I know when we get together, everything will fall in to place.

No complications and issues whatsoever.

may our love story be like ruth and boaz, jacob and rachel, 

so sweet and true till the end of time.

You will be that someone who brings me closer to Him.

Jesus will be the center of our relationship.

I am trying to remain pure and holy only for you

 and I know everything is all going to be worth it.

Cause when the time comes that you will bring me to the altar, 

you will face it with your head held high.

though there are times when things get compromised, but with God's grace, 

I was able to make it by somehow.

To you who is the one for me, if you seek Him, and found Him, He will definitely give you the keys to my heart.

So for now, may my love not awaken until it so desires, until you and i are ready,

ill be here waiting for you patiently..

0 there's just something about you

There's just something about you
that draws me in
I can't quite placate
what that something is though

your quiet nature
the way you view things
such mystery you hold
it draws me in

you're quite secretive
penny for your thoughts?
i want to know you more
you draw me in

first time I saw you
I find you kinda interesting
I was shy back then
but you draw me in

now were on speaking terms
i fear you'll find out
but I'm a good actress
you simply draw me in

this is not a poem
it has no rhyme
just a play of words
to express feelings I have inside

I know you and me will never be
who am I kidding, not you maybe
but this I hope and hope I must
let me be a friend whom you can trust

in the end im not quite sure if this really is a poem
or just some random babble, i can't decide though
just like my feelings towards you
there's just something about you